I believe sometimes many people, including myself, get caught up in the hustle and bustle of buying presents for Christmas. You want to make sure your family members receive everything they need and could ever want and also in return make sure that everything on your GIGANTIC Christmas list is in your arms Christmas morning. You wake up EXTREMELY early Christmas morning (earlier than you usually do) to rush downstairs tear open your presents, play with them for 10-15 minutes, then return to bed to enjoy your slumber until it’s time to eat/watch basketball games (GO CELTICS!)

However this is not what Christmas is about.

At some point in time the idea of celebrating a man’s birthday changed into a day to get get get from every person that we consider “important” to us. To me now (I’ve matured over these years or at least I’m in the process), Christmas is about celebrating my Savior’s birthday! I smile every time because this has to be the best day of the year! The man that saved many lives, loves unconditionally, and blesses people unimaginably was found lying in a manger TOMORROW! He did a lot for me and so many other people so his birthday can and will never be missed!

So HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS, not sure how old you’re turning, but thank you for being in my life for another year! Thank you God for sending your son to save us all. Jesus do you like apple pie or chocolate cake??? I’m going to eat one of them in honor of you!

But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today (December 25th) in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord.”

Luke 2: 10-11

So instead of thinking about what presents you did or did not get remember Christmas is Jesus’ birthday! And He is the best gift of all!

HAPPY JESUS’ BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!!

XOXO!

BE BLESSED!

So if you’ve been reading my blog, a majority of people should know the history between Kyler and I. And for some reason once he’s out of my life I always let him back in. UGH! I think this has to do with the forgiving heart that God has given me because I forgive and forget about the past and just try to move on. Since Novemberish Kyler and I have tried to become friends. It’s been a really slow process because sometimes he’ll have his crazy moments and say then he gets ignored. We’ve been through a lot so I always try to be there for him because I know what he’s been through and feel I understand why he acts the way he does. Kyler has a baby! I’m pretty sure she’s one of the cutest little girls (NOONE WILL EVER BEAT MY GODBABIES) in the entire world. So I went to meet the girl his family calls my “step-daughter” and also catch up w/ him, his brother, mom, and the rest of his family. It was cool catching up with them. They missed me and I’ve missed spending time with their family. Everything was great, Kyler was actually being normal and nice. Everything was back to how it use to be when we were actually good. Oh and the little girl is TOO CUTE (I already said that). She was crying and I picked her up and she stopped crying for me. I know his mom was happy she even said, “this is supposed to be yalls baby hopefully the next one will be” (CRAZINESS).

As the night was coming to an end, Kyler went back to his old ways. Much hasn’t changed. He was walking me to my car and he tried to kiss me and I pushed him away because we’re just friends nothing more and that line definitely shouldn’t be crossed again. I guess he got upset about being rejected and he knocked me in my eye. I yelled at him, jumped into my car, and drove off. As I was trying I was frustrated and crying…WHY! WHY DO I ALWAYS GO BACK TO HIM? He’s done really really horrible things to me and I always let him back into my life. I want to hate him but I can’t…deep down inside I’m always go to love him. UGH he’s called and I told him he needs to get his anger under control for the sake of his baby. We’re not really speaking as of time because I look at my puffy black eye in the mirror and just getting even more frustrated at myself and him.

I pray that Kyler is able to control his anger. I pray that he also becomes a good father to his baby. I also pray that he can start taking his anger on a THING instead of me.

ON A HIGH NOTE…my bestie best and big brother are in town! I’m super excited! Christmas break will go by much much faster!

XOXO!!!

BE BLESSED!

RIP Brittany Murphy. Uptown Girls & Clueless are still two of my top all-time movies!

I dislike being in a car for long periods of time but somehow I’m always traveling on the road like a crazy person. Norman was GREAT! I loved being with my OU boys! Willie, Keenan, Prada, Gucci, Marco, and the rest of Omega Psi Phi..I love you all to pieces! And Apples to Apples with Que Oil has become my favorite game by far! Miss you and I’ll be back in January!!! Yesterday I drove from Norman (through Amarillo) to Lubbock to visit my prego BFF, Janae & my baby Kiya. Kiya, my god-baby, is the CUTEST little girl ever. You should see her shaking her booty every time music played in the mall. After spending a few hours with them I drove to Amarillo. AWWW it was so good to be home where everything is free and I have nothing to worry/stress/hide from. My mom did make me start cleaning when I walked in the door BUT after all that I got settled in. It was great! I’m happy to be here (for this week).

Can’t wait to see my Amarillo loves!

XOXO!

MISS ME AUSTIN, TEJAS!

I’m beginning my journey across America over Christmas break! Stop #1: Dallas,TX/Norman, OK. I was supposed to leave early this morning but my lovely cousin requested me to babysit and I can’t say no to anyone [I need to work on this!] So I finally made it tonight after all the errands that I had to run! And I was welcomed to my “home” with wine. AWWW these boys know the way to my corazon! Anyways enjoying the rest of my time here then BAM I’m off to Lubbock/Amarillo,TX to see my mom, my cousins, and my besties!!!

MORE UPDATES OF THE ROAD TRIP COMING SOON!

Oh Yes! I updated my “what’s important to me” page AGAIN! Check it out!

XOXO!

Last night I was watching Maury and it was different than his normal shows. Usually Maury is talking about baby mama/daddy drama, people who are scared of FOIL (yes I’m serious), and Jack Hanna’s animal show. This episode was different. I guess Maury actually wants to address issues that more of his audience can relate to. The show was about teenage girls who were in abusive relationships. I started tearing up because it brought back a lot of bad memories. (Dangit Austin where are you when I go through my episodes…SWITZERLAND! Christmas break we will reunite homie!) BACK TO THE ORIGINAL TOPIC: I felt like I could relate to one girl because she was at the point where she feels like the ugliest person that ever existed on Earth and no one does/will ever want her besides the guy that she was with now. The girl put up with his abuse: physically, mentally, and emotionally because somehow she believed he did it all out of love. She would try to get away and it seemed like everywhere she turned he was always there or what he was saying was actually true so she had to run back towards him. OMG this part really had me crying because it made me think of all the things Kyler use to say to me. I actually was the girl. In the end, Maury always tries to prove a point and show the males what will happen to them if they do not stop what they are doing. The men went to jail and spent time with prisoners, they also got to see their girlfriends in wheelchairs and caskets to show what their abuse could lead to. I guess after this DAY of having the men experience this they were going to change automatically. I didn’t believe it. Kyler got beat up, went to jail, and he still acts the same. They showed an update on the same girl that I compared myself to: she would not take him back. She said she could not deal with him anymore and was going to find the strength within to improve her esteem and teach herself to find better. I thought WOW this was me! After so much time, I finally told Kyler to leave me alone. He still calls monthly and says crazy things when I disagree with everything he says. I’ve gotten stronger and wiser and with the help of many people around me who love me, I was able to get over and rid of him.

I’m thankful for having Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. I’m also thankful for the close bond that we’ve build over this past year. We’re best friends. Also thankful for: Family, amazing friends, MY LOVE , an outstanding Cohort (student teaching group), LIFE, my education, my lovely CT, and my vibrant class! The blessings God sends me with our amazing and I cannot wait for the many more that will be coming.

Usually for Thanksgiving, Guyana comes to Austin for food, fun, dancing, SCRABBLE, and Black Friday. However, this year it was my Aunt & Uncle’s 25th wedding anniversary AND Grandpa turned 75 soooo we decided let’s take a family cruise! It was an amazing and crazy time to be with family on vacation!

**MY GRANDPARENTS: I’m their favorite grandchild **

It was also wonderful to see my Aunt & Uncle celebrate 25 years of life together. I smiled through the entire ceremony and I’m hoping one day that will be me. After the wedding, Grandpa was in tears because he was so proud of all his children and grandchildren and all the good things he’s instilled into all of us. He did teach us a lot! Grandpa and Grandma were very strict but they also motivated us. Motivated us to do better what we could do. He looked at me and said, “Graduate from college, then I’ll be seeing you walk down the aisle.” That made me smile.

**VOW RENEWAL**

It was amazing seeing them celebrate their love for each other over these past 25 years! I pray, hope, and anticipate that being me some day.

Besides the vow renewal and being with family the best part of the trip was SNORKELING! Screaming while I thought the fishies were attacking me and choking because the salt kept getting into my mouth; beyond that, the ocean was beautiful!

It was fun being with the fam on a trip! We’re doing it AGAIN in TWO YEARS! WOOHOO! Good food, music, pretty weather, loads of activities, and of course family. Sure none of us got to wake up at 1AM and go stand outside in long lines for Black Friday but we were having fun TOGETHER and that’s all that really matters.

**COUSIN PICTURE (this is definitely NOT all of us…people wouldn’t cooperate)**

Hi blog followers!

How are ya? I hope everything is going well and you’re being blessed on a daily basis! I really wish I could update but unfortunately this is my last week of school (PRAISE THE LORD) and I have mucho work to do!

**STUDY MODE** this literature book is my bff til Friday.

8 Essays, Novel Unit, Personal System of Discipline, and a Math Reflection

Lots of coffee will be needed and sleep is out the window.

**Right now, Starbuck’s is my lover also** Double shots of WHATEVER!

I’m not stressed (surprising). Jesus is keeping me calm because I know I can and will finish all of it. So let’s pray that I make it through this week and then FRIDAY is when it’s going down and the party will begin!

**NO STRESS HERE MAYNE, JUST EXHAUSTED…THE LIBRARY ERKS ME**

So I’ll be updating Saturday morning, maybe Sunday depends on how long it takes me to recover from this week. So until then…MUCH LOVE!

XOXO!

Be Blessed!

**IN MY OWN WORLD ALWAYS**

Wednesdays and Sundays are definitely my favorite days of the week. Wanna know why?

HMM well on Wednesday it’s Taco & Potato Wedge day at my elementary school! And you know how I feel about mexican food and the potato wedges are sooo YUMMY!!!

I also have meetings with the greatest group of girls on campus. My lovely TEXAS STARS! I love them so much and love chatting, gossiping, and laughing with all of them.

Sundays are my days of relaxation. I take naps all day long. It’s so nice.

The weather is always the BEST on Sundays. Have you ever noticed that?

And I always treat myself to a wonderful HUGE dinner with my family, friends, or even by myself. It’s like I have my own personal Thanksgiving every Sunday!

And of course the #1 reason Wednesdays and Sundays are my favorite………………………………………………………………………………..

CHURCH! AWWW I love my church! I get to be in God’s house with his people and worship, sing, pray, praise, and just give thanks to God for everything that he does for me!

I LOVE Wednesday and Sunday! And tomorrow comes my special day!

OFF TO BED!

XOXO!

BE BLESSED!

C is for my charm, creative, charismatic, caring, cute side.

A is for my attitude , artistic, AWESOMENESS, and I’m definitely the apple of anyone’s eye!

R is my religion. God keeps me steady, balanced, and is everything that I need and more. Because of him I have rich, righteous, and ready for all the blessings he has for my life. Let Go, Let God!

I is well I’m pretty intelligent! [Sure I found out the other day I read on a 9th grade reading level ] BUT I will not let anyone or anything stop me!

S is for my sweetness. I sometimes feel like I can be the nicest person in the world. I put up with a lot and I give people TOO MANY chances; however, that’s how God made me and I thank him for that. Sometimes I can be stubborn and want to do things my own way. I argue with people trying to prove that I’m write and then I realize…I actually should have listen. (Jesus, Austin, and many others I know ya’ll are agree…yes yes I’m learning and growing!)

S (the other one) is for my sexy. I preserve it always. My play daddy, Diddy, taught me about that. I’m a natural beauty and sometimes I look like an 8th grade …BUT my sexy comes from inside and by the time I’m 30 I’ll look like a SEXY college student!

A is of course for my attentiveness. I have a HUGE heart and I want to take care of every person in the world. I’m willing to listen and help people with all their needs and many wants. I think this is why Jesus create me to be a teacher.

I’m off to bed/watch the meteor shower!

XOXO!

BE BLESSED!

This is what the Lord says—he who made you, who formed you in the womb, and who will help you:

Isaiah 44:2