I’m coming to terms with my singleness and losing an important person in my life. Yes I’m still and will always be sad because I feel like I lost a major piece of me but God continues to carry me and helping me grow stronger each and every second of the day. I always like to reflect on what I could have changed so we would be together, but I think things happen for a reason. I’ll never forget him saying, “You dated me so you can realize what a good man is.” A. I have realized what it feels like to have a good person in your life. B. I just wish the goodness could have stayed longer. Some days I feel like God was punishing me because I was putting this boy infront of Him. I also think maybe I was taking advantage of my blessing which I did. I dunno I just know that this is another lesson learned.
I’ve been reading my new devotional called, “Living Single”, and it’s about singleness, coping, and being happy with the single life. I sometimes tear up because I do not want to be single forever. However if it is in God’s plan then I will follow it. I pray night and day that God will bring a good man, my good man (RJ), back into my life. Like I said before right now I’m loving God and doing what all is best for me. I’m trying to find my happiness on my own. I’ve been searching for it for awhile and I believe daily I become more and more happier about my life. I’ve grown in God and His Word and also when it comes to my emotional/mental state. Like I tell myself daily…I’m going to be ok..God will get me through it all.
PS-Please keep me in your prayers. I have SOOO many projects due in April and Texas Relays is this week…AAAHHHH!!! Pray for me. =)
