ROAD TRIP: PART 2

I dislike being in a car for long periods of time but somehow I’m always traveling on the road like a crazy person. Norman was GREAT! I loved being with my OU boys! Willie, Keenan, Prada, Gucci, Marco, and the rest of Omega Psi Phi..I love you all to pieces! And Apples to Apples with Que Oil has become my favorite game by far! Miss you and I’ll be back in January!!! Yesterday I drove from Norman (through Amarillo) to Lubbock to visit my prego BFF, Janae & my baby Kiya. Kiya, my god-baby, is the CUTEST little girl ever. You should see her shaking her booty every time music played in the mall. After spending a few hours with them I drove to Amarillo. AWWW it was so good to be home where everything is free and I have nothing to worry/stress/hide from. My mom did make me start cleaning when I walked in the door BUT after all that I got settled in. It was great! I’m happy to be here (for this week).

Can’t wait to see my Amarillo loves!

XOXO!

MISS ME AUSTIN, TEJAS!

ROAD TRIP: PART 1

I’m beginning my journey across America over Christmas break! Stop #1: Dallas,TX/Norman, OK. I was supposed to leave early this morning but my lovely cousin requested me to babysit and I can’t say no to anyone [I need to work on this!] So I finally made it tonight after all the errands that I had to run! And I was welcomed to my “home” with wine. AWWW these boys know the way to my corazon! Anyways enjoying the rest of my time here then BAM I’m off to Lubbock/Amarillo,TX to see my mom, my cousins, and my besties!!!

MORE UPDATES OF THE ROAD TRIP COMING SOON!

**UPDATES**

Oh Yes! I updated my “what’s important to me” page AGAIN! Check it out!

XOXO!

Mr. Maury had me in tears :(

Last night I was watching Maury and it was different than his normal shows. Usually Maury is talking about baby mama/daddy drama, people who are scared of FOIL (yes I’m serious), and Jack Hanna’s animal show. This episode was different. I guess Maury actually wants to address issues that more of his audience can relate to. The show was about teenage girls who were in abusive relationships. I started tearing up because it brought back a lot of bad memories. (Dangit Austin where are you when I go through my episodes…SWITZERLAND! Christmas break we will reunite homie!) BACK TO THE ORIGINAL TOPIC: I felt like I could relate to one girl because she was at the point where she feels like the ugliest person that ever existed on Earth and no one does/will ever want her besides the guy that she was with now. The girl put up with his abuse: physically, mentally, and emotionally because somehow she believed he did it all out of love. She would try to get away and it seemed like everywhere she turned he was always there or what he was saying was actually true so she had to run back towards him. OMG this part really had me crying because it made me think of all the things Kyler use to say to me. I actually was the girl. In the end, Maury always tries to prove a point and show the males what will happen to them if they do not stop what they are doing. The men went to jail and spent time with prisoners, they also got to see their girlfriends in wheelchairs and caskets to show what their abuse could lead to. I guess after this DAY of having the men experience this they were going to change automatically. I didn’t believe it. Kyler got beat up, went to jail, and he still acts the same. They showed an update on the same girl that I compared myself to: she would not take him back. She said she could not deal with him anymore and was going to find the strength within to improve her esteem and teach herself to find better. I thought WOW this was me! After so much time, I finally told Kyler to leave me alone. He still calls monthly and says crazy things when I disagree with everything he says. I’ve gotten stronger and wiser and with the help of many people around me who love me, I was able to get over and rid of him.

THANKSGIVING IN THE SUN!

I’m thankful for having Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. I’m also thankful for the close bond that we’ve build over this past year. We’re best friends. Also thankful for: Family, amazing friends, MY LOVE , an outstanding Cohort (student teaching group), LIFE, my education, my lovely CT, and my vibrant class! The blessings God sends me with our amazing and I cannot wait for the many more that will be coming.

Usually for Thanksgiving, Guyana comes to Austin for food, fun, dancing, SCRABBLE, and Black Friday. However, this year it was my Aunt & Uncle’s 25th wedding anniversary AND Grandpa turned 75 soooo we decided let’s take a family cruise! It was an amazing and crazy time to be with family on vacation!

**MY GRANDPARENTS: I’m their favorite grandchild **

It was also wonderful to see my Aunt & Uncle celebrate 25 years of life together. I smiled through the entire ceremony and I’m hoping one day that will be me. After the wedding, Grandpa was in tears because he was so proud of all his children and grandchildren and all the good things he’s instilled into all of us. He did teach us a lot! Grandpa and Grandma were very strict but they also motivated us. Motivated us to do better what we could do. He looked at me and said, “Graduate from college, then I’ll be seeing you walk down the aisle.” That made me smile.

**VOW RENEWAL**

It was amazing seeing them celebrate their love for each other over these past 25 years! I pray, hope, and anticipate that being me some day.

Besides the vow renewal and being with family the best part of the trip was SNORKELING! Screaming while I thought the fishies were attacking me and choking because the salt kept getting into my mouth; beyond that, the ocean was beautiful!

It was fun being with the fam on a trip! We’re doing it AGAIN in TWO YEARS! WOOHOO! Good food, music, pretty weather, loads of activities, and of course family. Sure none of us got to wake up at 1AM and go stand outside in long lines for Black Friday but we were having fun TOGETHER and that’s all that really matters.

**COUSIN PICTURE (this is definitely NOT all of us…people wouldn’t cooperate)**

CRAM WEEK!

Hi blog followers!

How are ya? I hope everything is going well and you’re being blessed on a daily basis! I really wish I could update but unfortunately this is my last week of school (PRAISE THE LORD) and I have mucho work to do!

**STUDY MODE** this literature book is my bff til Friday.

8 Essays, Novel Unit, Personal System of Discipline, and a Math Reflection

Lots of coffee will be needed and sleep is out the window.

**Right now, Starbuck’s is my lover also** Double shots of WHATEVER!

I’m not stressed (surprising). Jesus is keeping me calm because I know I can and will finish all of it. So let’s pray that I make it through this week and then FRIDAY is when it’s going down and the party will begin!

**NO STRESS HERE MAYNE, JUST EXHAUSTED…THE LIBRARY ERKS ME**

So I’ll be updating Saturday morning, maybe Sunday depends on how long it takes me to recover from this week. So until then…MUCH LOVE!

XOXO!

Be Blessed!

**IN MY OWN WORLD ALWAYS**

 

WEDNESDAYS!

Wednesdays and Sundays are definitely my favorite days of the week. Wanna know why?

HMM well on Wednesday it’s Taco & Potato Wedge day at my elementary school! And you know how I feel about mexican food and the potato wedges are sooo YUMMY!!!

I also have meetings with the greatest group of girls on campus. My lovely TEXAS STARS! I love them so much and love chatting, gossiping, and laughing with all of them.

Sundays are my days of relaxation. I take naps all day long. It’s so nice.

The weather is always the BEST on Sundays. Have you ever noticed that?

And I always treat myself to a wonderful HUGE dinner with my family, friends, or even by myself. It’s like I have my own personal Thanksgiving every Sunday!

And of course the #1 reason Wednesdays and Sundays are my favorite………………………………………………………………………………..

CHURCH! AWWW I love my church! I get to be in God’s house with his people and worship, sing, pray, praise, and just give thanks to God for everything that he does for me!

I LOVE Wednesday and Sunday! And tomorrow comes my special day!

OFF TO BED!

XOXO!

BE BLESSED!

SOME MORE OF MOI ;)

C is for my charm, creative, charismatic, caring, cute side.

A is for my attitude , artistic, AWESOMENESS, and I’m definitely the apple of anyone’s eye!

R is my religion. God keeps me steady, balanced, and is everything that I need and more. Because of him I have rich, righteous, and ready for all the blessings he has for my life. Let Go, Let God!

I is well I’m pretty intelligent! [Sure I found out the other day I read on a 9th grade reading level ] BUT I will not let anyone or anything stop me!

S is for my sweetness. I sometimes feel like I can be the nicest person in the world. I put up with a lot and I give people TOO MANY chances; however, that’s how God made me and I thank him for that. Sometimes I can be stubborn and want to do things my own way. I argue with people trying to prove that I’m write and then I realize…I actually should have listen. (Jesus, Austin, and many others I know ya’ll are agree…yes yes I’m learning and growing!)

S (the other one) is for my sexy. I preserve it always. My play daddy, Diddy, taught me about that. I’m a natural beauty and sometimes I look like an 8th grade …BUT my sexy comes from inside and by the time I’m 30 I’ll look like a SEXY college student!

A is of course for my attentiveness. I have a HUGE heart and I want to take care of every person in the world. I’m willing to listen and help people with all their needs and many wants. I think this is why Jesus create me to be a teacher.

I’m off to bed/watch the meteor shower!

XOXO!

BE BLESSED!

This is what the Lord says—he who made you, who formed you in the womb, and who will help you:

Isaiah 44:2

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Things haven’t been going right for me lately. And I’m trying to figure out why. It seems like whenever I feel like I’m at my “happy moment”, it all gets taken away. This weekend I was really upset and spent a lot of time by myself thinking about WHY? Why God was so much bad being brought upon me? I thought maybe it was because I had done lots of bad before and God was getting me back. I felt guilty and thought that nothing good will every become of my life because I’ve done so many wrongs in my past. I googled on the internet about what to do when you feel God is not blessing you. I read an amazing sermon from a pastor about how God puts you through situations so that you can learn something from them. I remember learning this in my purpose driven life devotion I just forgot bits and pieces. And how he uses songs, sermons, preachers, and other people to help you when you get into these little funks.

So today I didn’t make it to church (I was having a wardrobe malfunction and kept pouting so I stayed home). I went to Bedside Baptist again and listened to Joel Osteen. His sermon was, “Silencing the Voice of the Accuser“.  He talked about how we need to stop carrying around our bags of negative guilt and only focus on the positives that we’ve done in our life because that’s what God does. Once we ask Jesus for forgiveness, he forgives and forgets; we need to do that also instead of carrying our guilt around and being down throughout life.

This message really inspired me. It inspired me to think about the positive things I’ve done in my life instead of the negative. I also prayed to God to forgive me for all the negative things I’ve done before and now and I feel like a heavy burden has been lifted from me. I actually laughed for a long period of time which was a first for this weekend. I can walk around with a smile across my face because I know that God has forgiven and forgotten and His opinion of me is ALL that matters.

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.

Romans 8:1-2

upset :(

I’m not going to post any blogs for awhile. I’m upset.

XOXO!